Things are crazy, not bad, in my life. Over the past few days, I've been paying more attention to life. I've realized that the past 6 yrs were filled with much depression and heartache. I talked to Jodi the other night and was reminded of her love and care for me. I know there are so many others like Jodi in my life. I'm so grateful to have such a loving support system. It's been so nice to come back to JTF after an absence and see messages in my journal. I'm truly grateful for the love and support I get here. I'm also grateful for such a loving family. As nutty as this may sound..........
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Jessica and I are working to mend things yet again. This time I think we're on to something. We had a good chat tonight. She was upset because I had left gifts for her children on their beds. She felt I was invading her space. Mom tried to explain that it's because I love and care for her and her children and wanted to let them know that I hadn't forgotten them. We hashed out our few issues and called it good. I really do love her. Heck! She's been my sister for 14 yrs now. It will never change.....
The sad news is that I'm finding more and more out about issues caused by Shannon. It's really sad to me. She truly has a convoluted view of life. According to her, the world is out to get her. At the end of July I sent a text to Shan telling her I missed her. She replied, no you don't you have Rich. We have only talked twice online since. I'm much happier without her. I mean really, who calls their best friends ex-husband and invites them to Vegas. I still don't understand what would make her think that I would want to spend a weekend with a man I had divorced.
I know now that Shannon had sent texts from my phone to Paul, Rich and Jessica. I'm not sure of the content. Why take someones phone and send unauthorized text messages? For a while I thought Shannon was looking out for my best interest. Now I feel like she was doing everything possible to try to ruin my happiness. My dilemna is that she has something precious to me. It may sound odd but it's my hot roller set. This is not just any set, believe me! My dear friend Christina let me borrow these rollers several times. She died in 2006. I was in possession of the hot rollers at the time. These rollers remind me of my dear Christina. I know I have my memories and photos but this is something I can't let go of. I'm still trying to figure out how to get in touch with Shannon to get my stuff. I'm honestly tempted to call her mom ;)
More will come tomorrow about progress with Rich..... we're doing well! We even bought paint for our room tonight
It's finally official. We're getting married November 5th!
